There's often times that we look at our lives and start to reevaluate parts of it. Our opinions on friendships, jobs and even our diet will undergo some sort of change over time. That change came around a year ago for me. And, it was more than a change. It was the beginning of a full on reinvention of myself.
I'll keep this as short as possible. I was extremely overweight, allowed so many things to control me and every day was a mental battle. There were good days mixed in with the bad. That didn't stop me from hating myself since roughy 2017 when I was really letting myself go. We often think that the crap we're dealing with doesn't leak into other parts of our life. Newsflash. It does.
When I noticed this, I knew I had to make a change. It sucks that it took me trying my best to wreck every meaningful relationship and gaining 80 pounds to realize that I WAS THE F*CKING PROBLEM. I finally looked in the mirror in disgust at who I had become and said, "I'm just done with you." It hasn't been all sunshine and roses, however, it's gotten better because I decided to make it better.
The gym is a part of my daily routine, I eat healthy and I no longer have any habits or vices that can negatively impact my mental and physical health. The one that had the biggest grip on me was alcohol. For years I wouldn't hesitate to fix me a whiskey double or crack a Natty Light when things got tough. It was a cure for social and general anxiety. Or, so I thought. It was all gas and no brakes whenever that first drink was made. That was every single time. I lacked self control. So I said, "I'm just done."
Later this week will mark 2 months since I had my last drink. I have put myself through the ringer to test my resolve and I've won every time. I'm telling y'all this as proof that you can do anything you set your mind to. Whenever your, "I'm just done," moment rolls around, please don't give up. Because, if my stubborn butt can do it, so can you.
"Complaining is an energy-draining habit. Redirect that energy towards things that bring you joy and growth."– Jeremiah Say
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